Minggu, 30 Juni 2013

For You Whom I Loved ~Sukideshita Anata e~

I loved you
I don't know how it happened and why
But I loved you...

I can't answer when you ask "what is love" because I don't know either. But for now, for me now, loving you is when I'm happy just by seeing you. Enjoying your presence alone is enough to pull both sides of my lips, making it very hard to keep myself from grinning. Loving you is when you always pop up in my head even when I really shouldn't think about anything else since I have tons of works to do. Loving you is wanting to know what are you doing right now. Wanting to hear your voice, wanting to see your face.

That's so one-sided since, honestly, I don't care about you or your happiness while as far as I know, loving someone should mean wanted that person to be happy. But not this. This feeling I have is only a longing for me to be happy because of you. That's selfish. And that's not love... but there is no English word for this feeling right now. In Indonesian I will say "suka" not "cinta". In Japanese I will say "suki" not "ai". In English, those words can only be conveyed by four letters. Love.
So let's stick to the "love" one.

Okay back to my "love" that is not that deep and mutual for you.
I guess this feeling will be troublesome for you. There is no chance that you have the same feeling too and me telling you directly would only cause troubles. So I'll keep it to myself. Besides, it's not that this is the first time I fell in "love" with someoen. I've done it thousand times my heart got bruishes. And all those times I fell in "love" I never dared myself to convey it. Either I was not sure that he loves me back, or I didn't have the courage to confess, or I felt no need to "going out" with him, or I didn't want to be the one who confessed. Either way I ended up penting up my feeling. And this time it is no different.

Then why am I writing this? Don't get cokcy. It's not for your sake. It's for my own sake. I wanted to perserve this feeling. I want that the future me will remember that I have ever feel like this. I have ever love someone. I want me to remember.

Before the feeling died or I die because my feeling grows stronger while yours doesn't, I want me to remember.

I loved you.

This feeling might dissapear or grows stronger

But either way, I loved you

Remember that I loved you like this...

Senin, 24 Juni 2013

Amel's Jogja's Spotlight! (edited)

More creative writing task ^__^' this is an edited version of Amel's blogpost entitled "Jogja Spotlight". I haven't waken up to my editing nature so, I'm pretty sure there are some things still not good and I might even turn Amel's fine work into something worse >___<

Here we go..


Jogja Spotlite
 
Among the many landmarks in Jogja, Malioboro can be considered as the most famous. It is the name of a street in Jogja, but this is not your regular street. Lining along the side walks are vendors selling various merchandise unique to Jogja such as batiks and t-shirts. There are also food stalls selling traditional foods. You can even find art performances here at night. Another reason why Malioboro is the most popular landmark in Jogja is because most of the tourist come visiting Jogja will have Malioboro street under their list of destination.

Regarding the naming of these street, there are two versions of rumours that has been spreading around. One version said that the naming is taken from the name of an English gentleman, Marlborough who came from U.K. and lived in Jogja during 1811 to 1816. The second version said that the word ‘Malioboro’ is taken from Sasnkrit which means “bouquet” because the street was always filled with bouquer of flowers everytime ‘Keraton Jogja’ had celebration.

Near the shoutern end of the street is another well-known in Jogja: Beringharjo traditional market. It is the largest traditional maret in Jogja. Inside, we can find batiks and souveniers available. This is a great place to show your bargaining skill because if you are really good at it, you can have stuffs here discounted up to half the price.

While you are enjoying your trip at Jogja, here are two must-ride traditional vehicle in Jogja: the Pedicab and ‘andong’. While you might have already get a clearer idea on what pedicab is, ‘andong’ here is a carriage drawn by one or two horse. Back in the day, this was the main transportation means along Malioboro street. However, these days this horse carriage is still operational providing a nice traditional sight-seeing transportation means for tourist or locals.Yogyakarta's identical with Malioboro. Every person who took time here would have to come here. Until now, this place still survives as the trade center and be one of icons of Yogyakarta. There’re two history versions of Malioboro’s naming. The first’s taken from the name of an English gentleman, namely Marlborough, a resident of the United Kingdom in the city of Yogyakarta in 1811 AD to 1816 AD. The second one’s taken from Sanskrit which means "bouquet", since this place used to be filled with a bouquet of flowers when the Palace held celebration. 

Seeking further on the past Malioboro, we have a little chit chat with Pak Siswo, a cabman who has dedicated himself since the 70’s. He said that back than, andong could only park in front of the entrance to Beringharjo Market. The road was only for pedestrian. He also said that it was easier to earn for a living with andong back than. Roads were still filled with andong and pedicab. There were less hotels and more trees along the street. The one-way street was also wider back than.

 The present Malioboro still have many pedicab and andong, but not as much as it was back than. The pedestrian area is also widened so andong and pedicabs are allowed to park along the street. Those traditional transportation are currelntly under Sultan HB X care since there are licensing and attributes for those vehicles. This makes only licensed andong and pedicabs are allowed to participate during certain Keraton’s event or celebration.

Urban development around the street depends on Mayor who reigned, for example: previous Mayor wants putting plant pots along the way, but now, the mayor wanta sidewalk's planted with grass, so no more plant pots for giving a better view. Mostly large trees have also been cut down for safety and there're a lot of street vendors selling batik or souvenirs.

Life goes on , and the seasons kept changing. Now, Pak Siswo considers his work not only as a way to earn money, but also as an entertainment. Remember the increasing of the number of competitors such as Trans Jogja bus, taxi, etc. Although he admitted that it's difficult in earning money as a cabman today.

Now, since we have gone to the southern part of Malioboro, get ready for what waits you at the northern part of the famous street. Here it is, ‘Pasar Kembang’ or ‘Sarkem’. Located at the hearth of the city, this place is the red-light district of Jogja. In the past, this was a more organized prostitution area. However Sosrowijayan (the name of the alley) has changed. Either it’s a matter of system or they way the prostitutes behave and dress up. For private reason, the girls there are only given the HIV/AIDS vaccination twice a month. Skill building was even completely removed from agenda on 2010 so some of them were taken and the rest were stayed. However, they still go to school and get lessons at least until Senior High. In time, they're fully devoted themselves to be a prostitute and no longer rely on the attendant to earn money and freely attract the visitors who are normally coming from pupils and students. By doing so, they tend to wear miniskirt and tank-top. 

So in short, they seek for men so the more visitors they served, the more money they got. Our interviewee's an old woman who has settled in Sosromenduran for almost 65 years. Her name is Mariyani , a widower who become the elder at Sosrowijayan Kulon RT 17 RW 03. She has five children who are working as a tailor and hairdresser. When we asked about the history of why people called this place as Sarkem, she gave us a very clear explanation that it's no more than just a name of Street around Malioboro, not place where the prostitution takes place, but Sosrowijayan. Back then, Sosrowijayan, which has three hundreds or something inhabitans, became a complex of kos-kosan as University of Proklamasi was established and inns for sellers, mostly from Bandung and Jakarta besides as the residence of the prostitutes or place for them to get money. They themselves mainly come from Jepara, East Java and Cilacap so this place also gave a lodging for temporary staying. Then, they should register to Bunga Seroja and will be announced to others on the meeting later. That's how procedure is running.


The prostitutes were raised to get education like others by the local citizens and build their skill in cooking and sewing. They got regular vaccination every week to avoid HIV/AIDS. How they dress up formerly like commoners and more polite –wearing a jeans or midi-skirt combine with shirt or blouse-. They went to school in the morning and go working at night until predawn. This prostitution's already exist since colonial period. The visitors came from Indochinese people and artists. When they want to, let’s call it, be ‘served’, they must ask attendant first so the prostitute just stayed at inns and waited for the visitors. Around the 60’s, some of the prostitutes were moved to place around Kotagede but then they returned due to the government’s plan to build Giwangan Station. The situation was uncontrolled and disorganized -so many drunken got into fight and mini nightclubs were opened nonstop-.