Kowareta Watashi e

Today I  quiet enjoy myself. Walking around Malioboro with my aunties and bros. Got myself two batik skirts of IDR 20.000 each, and stick with my aunty at JEC on the way home. Guess what we bought back to Aunt Indri's house... A DELL Smartphone. Aunt Iit just bought the device of IDR 3.895.000. Well, guess that's how you can spend your money when you have good position at work, and has yet your own family to share the fortune. It's fun, yet it's lonely sometime. I wonder will I spend my life like that, having no partner when I turned 38 later.

See the reality girl. I'm almost 20 and yet I never been on a date with anyone even once. Sure I wrote a lot of romance fanfic but that's all. It was all my fantasy of how it would be like to love someone and have that person love you back. Demo, are wa tada no mousou da... Even up until know I still could only imagine how it would feel being loved by someone other than your family though...

So, thinking about how pity my love life is makes me frustrated. Even now, when I sit on the front proct of Aunt Indri's house, I feel frustrated on how even my Junior High cousin was just being picked up by her boyfriend for a romantic Saturday-night Cycling while me, a college student in her forth semester, sitting here writing on my blog entry...

So, to I usually get ero when frustrated. Next post might be some smut of my OCs at my workm Dark Peace Chronicle.

Jya, matta ne~