Kagayaki Dina e ~A Letter for Mba Dina in All Her Shining Darkness~

Because my friend wants to read my reply to mba Dina's Letter, here we go~ :3 I'll come and read yours next, Ukky~ Nyeahahahahaha

Dear mba Dina,

Your letter to us really inspire me to look deeper on what’s happening around me as well as what’s happening on people’s mind. Just like what you said, I don’t have to experience amazing twists and turns like you did in your childhood ( I bet you’re in an even amazing ‘roller coaster’ of life right now out there). But I can’t help myslef but think what a plain and simple life I have. I can’t stop myself from comparing my life and yours. How you were brave enough to show your frustration of being compared to your sister and how you were brave enough to demand for people around you to love you.

On the contrary, I lifed a plain life, too afraid to cross the safe zone encircling me. But that does not mean I also close my eyes from seeing the world outside my safe zone. I see things outside, and yearn for it. But My feet is too weak and my body is too frail. I don’t have the courage to push myself and cross the line. I ended up just watching from the safe zone. Watching while trying to put myself on those people’s shoes. Those who are already get free from the safe zone and enjoying the world with its bitterness as well as happiness too. I wonder if what I’ve been doing is what you call premonition only. It is not the truth since the feeling and sensation are just my imaginations? I wonder if I should break free from the safe zone and experience things first hands. But by breaking out from the safe zone, does that mean I have to intentionally hurt myself? Haha. That would make me a masochist. But somehow I don’t mind being a Masochist. 

Wanna join the maso Dark Side?

And another things that is bothering me is if I intentionally throw myself to a world of chaos and problems just so I could experience those pains first hand, It would be rude to you and other people who don’t have choice and HAD to experience bitter things because of the situation. Compared to that, me who is going to throw myself down the gutter on purpose is like a huge mockery to you. So I will not do that. I think I will life the live the way I’ve been doing all these years.

I trust Fate and am too lazy to think of something for myself anyway. So might as well go with the flow and from time to time go against it when the situation calls. If she wants me out of my safe zone, Fate’ll always have the card to turn myself upside down in just a flip of a finger anyway. So, for now I will try to understand what’s happening in my surrounding, trying to understand the world and why things turns like that. Observing. Afterall, I already got used to my role as an observant. I observe and analyze, trying to empathize and seeing things with other people’s perspective. So I used to see things from the third POV instead of the first POV. Reading your letter also makes me trying to put myself in your shoes. Though what I got might not as similar to what you actually feel, your emotions reach my heart. Or so I thought. I got the feeling that putting things into writing helps people and you show me with your letter mba Dina.

Like how you put your feelings and emotions in writing, and then feeling lighter after that, I also do that, though my problems are not as complex as yours. Haha. Sharing one’s experience will always have good effects. Thank you for sharing what you have with us and thank you for giving us more reason to write mba Dina.

You surely have one hell of a twisted life but how you manage to go along with the twist and made it something that inspire others is really what makes me admire you. Words are really amazing. Writing is really amazing. I’ll continue writing and share what I see and feel with other people like what you do with your letter and other writings.

Life long, life strong, keep writing and touch people’s heart mba Dina ^^.

With love and admiration, from a country girl in big city

Dian Kartika Dewi

That's a response to mba Dina's letter, here. She's a great writer with a great life. I really respect her :3