Night Cry, 'cuz I Have Tears Like You Do

It's past midnight and I'm crying right now reading my e-mai. Why you ask?

Dunno. Probably all the pent up frustration got blurted out with that one simple e-mails telling me to revise my work from days ago. Okay. Since it's my blog, MY Trash Bin, I'm gonna trashing around here.

So it's been a few weeks since the admin of my working place got annoying with all of his/ her mistakes and vague instruction for my works. After all those times, I put up and held back my emotion. I settled the thing down. I managed to pass that. But hey, he admin doesn't stop messing with me! This time he came back with a revision work from two days ago! And not to mention there are also those of yesterday's work, as well as today's work. Well done. Now my frustration also bursting out like the mountains of revision that I had to do.

Sure, it all happens because I made the mistakes from the start. If I were bright enough to do all those things well with the half-assed instruction, then I wouldn't have to do the revsion.

All well ends well. All bad ends worst. Okay, I bought that to myself. And now I'm cleaning up the mess.

Sorry for being a drama queen over such a simple thing. Thanks for listening. I feel better.

And message to myself: Next time, read the instruction real well before starting your job.
Jill(?): How the heck am I supposed to read it every time when the opening is always the same?! You admins better stop copy-pasting the old instructions and only adding a few tid bits of changes!!!
AnotherJill: Well, you're the employee so that's your fault for not wanting to be at the top,
Jill(?): Ck. I prefer down here cursing at those above rather than flew up there and being cursed by those bellow me!
AnotherJill: No one will curse you if you do everything properly.
Jill(?): What is proper anyway?
AnotherJill: ... ... ... Okay that's it. Jill's being delusional (again).

Content Writer no Atashi e

It's been a while since I write anything in my blog... Well, since it's mine, I'll pour this out here, okay.

It's been almost two years since I start my part time job as a content writer. To be honest, from the beginning, I started to think whether what I was doing is right. I started to lose my sleep hours, my grade was not falling that fast but they are falling for sure. My fingers started to twitch and tremble from time to time. I'm afraid... But if I give up here, I though that would make me a snotty brat with no courage and guts to face the pain and toil of what life consist of. So keep going with my work up until now.

Zombie-me, too many works lack of sleep

This semester is extremely hard on me. With all the paper work (I'm a literary department student) and the job keep flooding on me, I feel like my free time had just wasted away. The irony is, the reason why I started doing part time job was so that I could buy myself a PSP. Now I've got my hands on that but have no time to play the game. If I stop the part time job, I'll be back to my spoiled self who ask for things and stuffs to my parents instead of getting the thing myself like I do right now...

Hmmmff... I guess this is how life is... just like in Gundam SeeD's ED, "Doushitemo rakujanai michi o eranda ne..." (Kimi wa Boku ni Nite Iru). That's how I've been seeing the 'World' since junior high... If you want to feel the happiness, you have to suffer first... I'll continue with this suffering for now. I just hope I don't end up letting myself suffer too much.

Oh, for those Indonesian who also wants to join my path of suffering and redemption, you can try to apply yourself as a content writer too here. You then will have to write article of various topics every day, around 1500 - 3000 words each day. The payment is decent and if you work hard, you can get IDR 1,5 - 2,0 million per month. Not bad for a part-time job. But watch for your health ;)